Saturday, September 12, 2009

Innocent Betrayal


She sat there with her eyes closed, listening to the waves echo back the words he had just said...
the gamble he had played with his trusting heart and lost...

It was the stuff dreams were made off...the beach, the song from her favorite singer, the eyes full of the emotion she had always wanted to see...
But she didn't say a word..confused...looking for feelings she knew should be there...
And he stood there misunderstanding her silence for yes
He took her into his arms then...
Something within her panicked and she struck away from his surprised arms...
the arms drooped...the look shattered into a million crystals...struck down by the wall of her betrayal

She opened her eyes to see him chasing crabs...
To anyone watching from a distance, it would have been hilarious...a grown man on his knees crawling after tiny translucent crabs, being a charming little boy
But to her it was the most painful thing she had ever seen...a grown man broken in half...grasping for sanity which chased away from him, slipping into little holes in the wet sand

It broke her to break him, it tore her apart...but she had no choice...her fears, her doubts had taken over and masked the love that was somewhere inside...
And she had turned and run away...

she ran...

she could hear him calling...

but she ran...

she ran till she could no longer hear the accusing waves,
she ran till she could no longer feel the coldness of pain,

she ran for days
she ran for months
she ran for an eternity

and then she stopped

for she could smell the sea again
for she could hear his voice again
and there was the same love in it
she turned to see the look she knew was in his eyes
she turned to tell him she was not scared anymore

and there he was...

and it was stuff dreams were made of..the beach..the song...the eyes filled with the same emotion...

but his arms were closed and his head was bent, and where she should have been, was someone else...
she fell to her knees crawling away from the pain, looking for crabs that refused to come...
a little girl..a broken woman...Innocently betrayed...

9 comments:

humbl devil said...

so finally hez found love again..happy for him...

umangexuberance said...

hmmm...this was fiction inspired from fact re..
and happy...i dunno..i guess i shud be too

desperado said...

betrayed...by self or the guy....by feelings or by time....by heart or by head

PS: brilliant writing ... 3rd para

radiohead said...

Hmm .. the stuff in dreams hardly happens .. one shouldn't let the chances go by ..

humbl devil said...

i know..
:)
happy for you too..it wouldnt have worked out...just a hunch...

umangexuberance said...

@desperado
A little by all of them...some betrayals were innocent, some were not, but betrayal they all were.
Thanks, that compliment coming from you, I am truly honored

@radiohead, well sometimes our dreams come true in ways we have neither expected nor are in a position to accept. Its not about what is done or how it is done, but by whom it is done and how we feel about it. The thing is no matter how much we want to, we can't force ourselves to feel anything for anyone. our feelings betray us.

@humble devil
lol some hunch eh :D
i know it would never have worked, I don't regret my decision one bit.
as for the post, the end was 90% dramatic license and 10% chemical reaction to shock...irrational and short-lived. :D

ani_aset said...

feel happy for the guy..and innocently betrayed or life coming full circle?

Blue Kite Dreamz said...

How do you write the way...you do..evertime i read you..this nazm recited by Gulzaar sahab plays inside me....

"Mujhko Bhi Tarkeeb Sikha, Mere Yaad Julahey…
Aksar Tujhko Dekha Hai Ki Tanna Boontey Boontey…

Agar Koi Dhaga Toot Gya Ya Khatam Ho Gya….
To Kahi Se Sira Koi Jod Ke Phir Aagey Bhunney Lagtey Ho….

Magar Tumhari Iss Bhunai Mein Koi Girrah Dekh Nahi Sakta Hai Koi…
Maine To Buna Tha Ik Bar Sirf Ik Hi Rishta…

Magar Uski Girahey Saaf Saaf Nazar Aati Hai Mere Yaar Jurahey…
Mujhko Bhi Tarkeeb Sikha Mere Yaar Julahey……

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